FRENZY!!!

Why is it that when you are so near,
you seem so far always?
why is it that *friendship*
was never as painful
as is between you and me?
why is it that when i know what future holds
will never favour my love for you
but my *frkn* heart wudnt let me take it in?
...

if there was anything, anything at all in the universe, which if i get hold of, will change the way things are now, for better, i would fight to procure it, or die trying.

...

...lost love is most cherished...


i know i have left many promises hanging... and i am guilty of it. i haven't been able to spend time enough to pull me out of the psycho- interior- design- world...
i am as sorry as i ever can be